random things about me now

I find it weird. Everything below.

• I miss my bestfriend
• I’m having a hard time sleeping at night
• I read more math books now than poetry books
• I’m having a hard time writing
• I get anxiety attacks more often
• I can lock myself in my room for a whole day, going out only to eat and urinate
• I stay up every night until 3am
• I prefer not think that I’m depress, because I see no logical reason for that
• I prefer not to think that I’m denying that I’m depress, if I am, I would know
• I miss my bestfriend
• I watch a lot of cartoons lately
• I still want to go back to the Taekwondo team
• I drink a lot of tea
• I eat a lot
• I don’t like my dreams
• It’s been one and a half year since my bestfriend last talked to me and it’s killing me
• I like really this certain girl. I enjoy talking and being with her. But she scares me. A lot.
• I don’t enjoy the things I use to do: reading magazines, dvd hunting, etc
• I spend a lot of time sleeping
• I prefer to avoid reading psychology books
• I don’t enjoy the company of my friends the way I use to. I meant that with no offence. Really
• I don’t drink alcohol anymore. (maybe everything is due to withdrawal)
• I procrastinate a lot
• I like Hunter Thomson more than I like Tom Wolfe now
• I prefer to be secretive. (so not me)
• I spend a lot of time reading Wikipedia entries
• I haven’t played sports in a long while. (kahit lagi akong niyaya magbasket ng tropa ko)
• I feel tired all the time
• I’m trying to learn to play the piano
• I feel sad that I can’t bully anyone in grad school. I use to pick on my dork classmates in college and high school
• I don’t like Marxist ideologies the way I use to
• I hesitate a lot before doing anything. This I hate about myself now, because it makes me miss a lot of opportunities.
• I watch a lot of old movies
• I’m confused with the way I want my poetry to look like
• I spent a lot of time in YM
• I miss my athletic old self
• I spend a lot of time in Multiply
• I think Facebook is for robots
• I think I know why Marx was wrong
• I like my studies but I’m having a hard time financing my education
• I miss my old muscular built. Promise. There was a time.
• I will shoot anyone who will say and think that im emo. Not kiding.